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haha okay this is super unrelated to anything but I feel like I have to share this wonderful thing whit the entire world. : D
SO! My mom seriously just promised me that if I finished school whit straight A's, she will buy me an apartment whenever I want to!
SERIOUSLY!

SHE. WROTE. A. CONTRACT.

And I'm not even one of those spoiled kids who gets a car for their birthday or anything! This is sick!  

(but since I'm retarded this means I'll probably have to study all the time <_>'')

And this means I could start living by myself when I'm 15 (motherfucking FIFTEEN!) if I want to! And I've been wanting to move out from here since I was like seven!


AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH *dies*


(feel free to tell me to go and fucking study every now ans then 'cause I'm gonna need it )

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Don't forget to take your pills, kids.
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I'm at my cousins' at the moment, me and my brother are spending the weekend here. And since all the other kids are boys and/or much younger than I we don't really have that much to talk about. And they're playing computer games and stuff. I joined them for some Lego Batman but I've played  that game too many times. So ive been watching movies and read and shit.
And I thought I might as well do this thing I was tagged to do by -

1) What's your favorite color?
Yellow, but no. All of them, but no.

2) What does your hair look like?
Short bleaches blonde whit a straight bangs. the sides used  to be partly shaved but they are longer now. It's hard to describe.

3) If you were out with some stranger, lost in the middle of nowhere with no food and no way home, would you eat them to survive?
Depends on the environment and such, but I suppose so yes.  

4) How much do you text in a week?
I usually waste all of my money in one week and then have to wait for three weeks to get more. But I don't text that much, I just write really long texts.

5) Is there any food you definitely can't eat?
Eyes. Believe me I've been offered to try out different types of eyes and just, no.

6) I'm running out of questions.
Well, fuck you then. (it's okay if I tell her that. She's mah best friend and she wants me to fuck her )

7) If a teacher gave you a surprise test, would you be surprised?
Not really no.

8) Sprite, Fanta or Coca Cola?
Cola bitches!

9) What's your favorite song?
Changes from day to day but right now it's 'Whirlwind' by Broder Daniel

10) I have no more questions. Just remember, kids: Grammar is important and Yolo is bullshit. I'm out.
I ain't even gonna answer this. 'cause YOLO



Talking about whirlwind I just watched the Swedish movie 'Fucking Åmål' and it's just.. I don't even care if you hate Swedish and don't want to read the english subtitles and it's low quality or whatever. You all have to watch it. Here I'll send you the link to part one then it's all there; www.youtube.com/watch?v=zlkhZw…
That movie is one of my absolute favourites, it's the movie that made me feel it's okay to be bi and it's the movie that made me want to be myself and no one else and so on.  
Just please watch it and then tell me what you thought about it?


Oh and srry for not tagging back I guess, I personally kinda like being tagged from time to time but I always feel like I'm forcing people into stuff when I tag them so yeah. Feel free to tag me, or whatever this weekend (and forever on) 'cause I have NOTHING AT ALL to do.

I've been away for 3 weeks now, on a trip trough Europe. Sorry for not really telling you before I left, I didn't feel like many of you wold care anyways honestly.

I'm so confused about my feelings. About myself, people in the world and maybe dA as well.
I'm not sure what I'm gonna write, I just feel like I've changed a lot. I just deleted a thousand unanswered messages here, literally. I feel like a mean idiot.
I will try to find my way back to reality and dA. I'm not sure this is the place for me anymore.

This sounds really depressing, bad and bolt, but i'm not feeling very well.

I'm so sorry. Please try not to hate me.

I should post something but it's about 4 am and I'm tired and I should have updated earlier like I promised, but I half-spontaneously booked a trip to visit so I wasn't able to. But I had a great time whit her and when we went to a cinema to see Dark Shadows we were the only ones there so we like laughed and talked and all that shit 'cause no one told us not to and it was awesome. And her brother wasn't close to as scary as I thought he'd be! We played Lego Pirates Of the Caribbean and it was awesome to. and I've been celebrating many birthdays lately, including my own even though it's not yet.
At Friday I'm leaving to my grandma's and I'm not sure if I'll have internet and I'll be gone for like 1-2 weeks but I'll try to be here and then I'll be home for a while but then I'll take the boat to Finland to live in my house there [yey for no electronic devices neighbors internet and stuff like that] and I'll be there for 10 - 11 days and then I'll be home for just the weekend I think (maybe the entire week. who knows?) and then I'm going to travel trough Europe by train, well mostly train but also boats and airplanes when the train won't work, and I'll be gone for like 3 weeks and it'll be so awesome. I know for sure that we'll be in Greece and Austria 'cause I've got friends and family there and I know we'll visit Italia but since I'm not the one planning the trip I'm not so sure about anything else. But it will be so much fun GAH I'm so excited.